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Friday, 17 April 2009

keep the faith

Wow I haven't blogged since Oct. I really always think I need something interesting to write about and never feel like I have that. I went to a ladies retreat in Oct. While there I really felt like I heard God tell me not to worry about paying for college for Cade. Definitely not out loud but still I felt really assured. We heard that if you make under 40,000 on your adjusted gross income we could get tuition pd for so Cade could go to Tech. Well the time came to figure our taxes and we were barely over that so that seemed out. Then we got a phone call from a friend who said she felt all week like she was supposed to call me and in the conversation she said they were over also and took that amount out and put it in a IRA. We called our guy we invest with and he said sure that would work so we did that. All of that felt like God's leading but then we did our FASA and had to include the money we got when my Aunt died last year. Dan called Tech and they said we would not qualify for the free tuition because of the inheritance money putting us over and our contribution would be 10,000. Still I didn't freak out because I thought we would get all the money in scholarship funding. During this time Dan was growing sadder and trying to think what we could sell to fund college so Cade would not be disappointed. Finally we got our print out from Tech and we did not get anything and I lost faith and started crying and cried for hours. Even while I was crying I kept having the thought I would look silly when God did provide. We went to the college to beg them for help and lo and behold he had the tuition paid all along but they don't release that till May 1st. Also the lady we talked to took things off our FASA so our contribution is now under 4,000 and we qualify for Pell grants and the Texas Grant which may be more then the tuition payoff. That very day Cade got his last score on ACT and it is a 31 so by the time we got home he had a scholarship for 1,000.
We felt like we were blessed coming and going and the whole point in this blog is to remind you and me that when we hear God speak keep the faith until we get the answer. Sure it could have been no to Tech and we would have handled that when we heard but we didn't get all of the answer and we gave up to soon.

Thursday, 16 October 2008

brown hair

Yes it was hard to go gray. I think I won't try it again for years. The minute I colored it I thought " ah there you are again". The last kicker was when a woman told me I looked ten years older so I called Moe and she said go color it
We went to visit Texas Tech and Cade loved it. Thanks to El C and Rachel for food and bed. Now we just continue to pray for the money to pay for it and that will have to be from grants and scholarships. I would not want to go there. It is to big and impersonal for me. We did manage to hit Starbucks or as Dave Ramsay calls it 5bucks. They make the best black tea and if I order it without ice and get a cup full of ice in my cup then I get two times as much tea for the terrible price.
Cade gets to play quarterback tomorrow. The other one had a fight with a teammate and is kicked out for this game.
It is Moe's happy 33birthday today. Blessings

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Wednesday, 17 September 2008

Grey hair

I want you to know it is very hard for a 56 year old women to let her hair go grey, at least in small town America.I have had people stop me on the street and in a very whinny and emotional voice say, "Why are you not coloring your hair?" Please note all of the people who have said something color their hair from red to black and almost all are older than me. One older (20 years) lady said just tell them you like looking older. Somehow that does not encourage me. Probonose the husband really likes it or at least tells me he does because he is turning grey and may just want us to look the same.
One daughter has seen it and says she likes it but she is very tender hearted and will not tell me the truth so I have made the other daughter swear she will give her honest opinion when she comes home in Nov.
One problem is my own feelings about grey haired women. I always think they are older than me so is that how I want to look just because I hate the once a month color job. Also I wonder when I would let the black wear off if I go back to it. Is 65 or 75 old enough to be grey? I look in the mirror and think I see my Aunt Wyona and she is lots older than me. So with all this ambivalence I may not make it to Nov. If I could post pictures I would take a survey and color or not depending on the outcome. One funny comment I got came from a neighbor who is a couple cokes short of a six-pack who just colored her hair red and told me I should try it.

Monday, 15 September 2008

empty brain

empty brain sounds catchy. I must have been because I haven't written in a month but I have kept up with some of you along the way.
We've had rain so had not gone in the garden in 2 weeks. Dan and I walked up there and had to carry home the loot. The cantalopes were huge and delicious. Also green beans and tomatoes. I am still watching the squash and hoping we get before the critters decide they are ripe. On the internet some people say wait till frost and some say pick first. Can not wait to eat them.
We are doing a Dave Ramsay class. My Dan wants to sell the car and buy something cheaper and apply extra to Cade's truck. I say no way cause it is paid for and gets 34 miles to the gallon down hill with a tail wind. We probably have the least debt of anyone in the class because we just have C's truck but we are also 56 and do not own a home so that may be a worry someday. Everyone in the class is enjoying it and I sure wish our kids were here with us to learn from our mistakes and start early.
We just read LIFE TOGETHER by Dietrich Bonhoeffer. One of my favorite parts talks about how important fellowship with Christians is. He says "They receive each other's benedictions as the benediction of the Lord Jesus Christ. But if there is so much blessing and joy even in a single encounter of brother with brother how inexhaustible are the riches that open up for those who by God's will are privileged to live in the daily fellowship of life with other Christians! It is easily forgotten that the fellowship of Christian brethren is a gift of grace, a gift of the Kingdom of God that any day may be taken from us, that the time that separates us form utter loneliness may be brief indeed". You know how you meet a stranger and talk for a few minutes and your spirit calls out to their spirit and you find out they are Christian. That is so neat when it happens. He also says " the unspeakable gift of God for the lonely is easily disregarded and trodden under foot by those who have the gift every day." I loved the book even though is was a thoughtful read. Find a fellowship and draw close.

Tuesday, 19 August 2008

Praise and worship was wonderful. The lead singer was 19 and played the guitar and sang fab. I have just read the book "The Shack". I really loved it. Part of what God spoke to me through it is how judgemental I have been. So one night of worship this girlfriend of one of my SSclass guys came in. She had lots of makeup on and her hair was died black BLACK. I looked at her and didn't like what I saw since I really love the guy. Then I thought about what God had been showing me and I asked forgiveness and prayed for her. At the end we had prophecy time and a word for her was that God looked at her and saw her inside out and He wanted her to know He thought she was beautiful. I was sooo glad I had repented already so I didn't get slapped up sidathehead.
I asked Dan to read the book thinking he would hate it because he would see all the things wrong with it in line with the bible but he read it and is just finishing it. He loves it and thinks it holds up all the way and /\God is speaking to him through it. So nice. So we recommend it to all.